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It's like a roller coaster of emotions.. You only text me when you want something.. When you feel that it's "OK" to talk. I feel that we should be able to talk and hang out and all that. We both agree that we were both wrong. But we don't have to avoid each other. You say that we can't see each other and we shouldn't be talking but your finding reasons to text me. I know this isn't what you want and you do want to hang out and talk to me again. I love you and I know that you love me. What's the point of going against what you want and what you know is real?? Well, I guess things just take time and people just need a little space. Understandable.

Guy Situation

I wake up every morning, grab my phone, and text you good morning. I don't actually send it to you anymore. You hate me. and never wanna see or talk to me again. but I love you and I know you love me. I messed up and so did you. but you don't need to treat me like I don't mean anything to you when I know I do. you mean so much to me. There really wasn't anything wrong with us until you started falling for a lil girl. I mean... your 18 and I'm only 22 days away from turning 16 and she just turned 15, like three months ago.. that shit is wrong. I'm not saying us being together would be right but it is better than that. and she is such a lil girl. isn't is when you go from one girl to the next you are suppose to upgrade and go to someone better and prettier and all that?? well I thought I was pretty and beautiful and all that good stuff but by doing this for like the third time... your making me feel like I'm just some normal girl that isn't pretty or that means anything.. Really?? That's not right. I'm not trying to be conceded or anything, but I think I have the right to be like this at this point.. I mean is this a bad situation? or am I just overreacting bcuz I love this guy?? Anyone have any advice? Comments? Anything?

Goodnight

It's time to shut the computer off and put my mind to rest. After a long day of work, school work, and friends.. it's time to let my mind and body be at rest. Only the spirits of the Northern Alaskan skies will know what the future holds for me and I will have to wait to find out. But for now Goodnight, and may you all sleep well on the wonderful peaceful night.

Funny, Like a Need to Watch LOL

Best Harlem Shake and Gangnam Style battle ever haha.. so funny it will make you laugh. just click the link and watch :) I hope you enjoy..

No Happy Endings :/

It's a new day, Let yesterday slip away. Starting off good with a shower, I now have the power. One message can make me smile, The next makes my heart run a mile. Time for work, Put on that smile, don't be a jerk. Getting better as I go, Even though it's kinda slow. I have an internal time bomb, Gotta learn to stay calm. Harsh words are thrown around, No solution has been found. You chose her, My love for you is starting to blur. As my heartbeat becomes slow, I'm starting to see a slight glow. My life flashes before my eyes, I know I will not rise. Life as I know it, Is nothing but a slit. There are no happy endings in this shitty world we all live in. Cherish the moments that make you happy, they won't always be there when you need them the most.

Just a lil Info

Okay, well I'm just a normal teenage girl. I live in a small ass town called Tok. Ya, that's right I live in a town called Tok. Tok, Alaska to be exact. Population around 1200 in the summer and 1500 in the summer. I've lived here all my life... basically. Well, I grew up in an 18wheeler for the first 8 years of my life with my mom and dad and two sisters. I have traveled all over the Unites States and I've been to Canada and Mexico :) pretty legit haha at least I think so. Anyways, I'm a pretty chill girl and I love to jus hang out with friends and talk. Most of my friends are guys BTW.. haha girls are just way too much drama and I get along better with guys. But I do have some girl friends that I chill with like all the time haha. Call me a hypocrite or whatever you want but don't judge a book by its cover... Follow my blog and check it out. I promise it will get better :) haha talk to ya'll later. Peace!

First Post :)

Hey, I'm kind of new to all this blog stuff.. but I have to give pre-warning that what I post here might be a little graphic and emotional... haha but it's kinda cool what I write..